[ then why are you still here? it's a good question, one clarisse isn't sure she has an answer to. she's not even sure she has a sarcastic response for it, either. it resonates in her mind, to the very core of her being. for once, since the time she stood in front of the oracle to hear her prophecy for her quest, she feels shaken. and she doesn't like it. she feels vulnerable in his presence suddenly, and not in the fun way.
why is she still here? why does she do anything anymore? she's lost the two most important people in her life, and it's not like her dad really pays any more attention to her now than he ever did, even after all she's achieved. she still doesn't feel good enough, even though she's long since proved her worth to her father. maybe she's just bitter there's a new child of war out there and she's no longer daddy's favorite. he barely recognized her even when she was his favorite, but now it just feels as if he's moved on to other conquests; why should he make time for his daughter when he has a new son?
all of this reels through her head with that one simple question. why is she still here? maybe it just feels better to be in the company of someone you hate but who recognizes you for who you are and what you've accomplished than to be in the company of those who you consider friends but who have replaced you with someone else they consider more worthy of being a hero. maybe she understands him now more than she ever did, more than she ever wanted to, and it keeps her here, tied to him by an invisible thread. maybe it's the fact that she sees chris in him and it makes her curious (what he feels like, what he tastes like). maybe it's just nothing. ]
I don't know. Maybe you should ask yourself the same question.
[ they both could have walked away ages ago, but they're both still here. clarisse wonders if maybe that means something, if she's destined to spend the rest of her life being tormented by luke castellan. if it's true, he'll have to spend the rest of his life tormented by her, so at least they can call it even. ]
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why is she still here? why does she do anything anymore? she's lost the two most important people in her life, and it's not like her dad really pays any more attention to her now than he ever did, even after all she's achieved. she still doesn't feel good enough, even though she's long since proved her worth to her father. maybe she's just bitter there's a new child of war out there and she's no longer daddy's favorite. he barely recognized her even when she was his favorite, but now it just feels as if he's moved on to other conquests; why should he make time for his daughter when he has a new son?
all of this reels through her head with that one simple question. why is she still here? maybe it just feels better to be in the company of someone you hate but who recognizes you for who you are and what you've accomplished than to be in the company of those who you consider friends but who have replaced you with someone else they consider more worthy of being a hero. maybe she understands him now more than she ever did, more than she ever wanted to, and it keeps her here, tied to him by an invisible thread. maybe it's the fact that she sees chris in him and it makes her curious (what he feels like, what he tastes like). maybe it's just nothing. ]
I don't know. Maybe you should ask yourself the same question.
[ they both could have walked away ages ago, but they're both still here. clarisse wonders if maybe that means something, if she's destined to spend the rest of her life being tormented by luke castellan. if it's true, he'll have to spend the rest of his life tormented by her, so at least they can call it even. ]